Антон Чехов
Love and Other Stories
"French women," observed Groholsky. "The one nearest us isn't at all bad-looking. Lively damsels, but that's no matter. There are good women to be found even among such… But they really do go too far."
What was funny was that Ivan Petrovitch bent across the verandah, and stretching with his long arms, put them round the shoulders of one of the French girls, lifted her in the air, and set her giggling on the verandah. After lifting up both ladies on to the verandah, he lifted up Mishutka too. The ladies ran down and the proceedings were repeated.
"Powerful muscles, I must say," muttered Groholsky looking at this scene. The operation was repeated some six times, the ladies were so amiable as to show no embarrassment whatever when the boisterous wind disposed of their inflated skirts as it willed while they were being lifted. Groholsky dropped his eyes in a shamefaced way when the ladies flung their legs over the parapet as they reached the verandah. But Liza watched and laughed! What did she care? It was not a case of men misbehaving themselves, which would have put her, as a woman, to shame, but of ladies.
In the evening, Ivan Petrovitch flew over, and with some embarrassment announced that he was now a man with a household to look after..
"You mustn't imagine they are just anybody," he said. "It is true they are French. They shout at the top of their voices, and drink.. but we all know! The French are brought up to be like that! It can't be helped… The prince," Ivan Petrovitch added, "let me have them almost for nothing… He said: 'take them, take them..' I must introduce you to the prince sometime. A man of culture! He's for ever writing, writing… And do you know what their names are? One is Fanny, the other Isabella… There's Europe, ha-ha-ha!.. The west! Good-bye!"
Ivan Petrovitch left Liza and Groholsky in peace, and devoted himself to his ladies. All day long sound of talk, laughter, and the clatter of crockery came from his villa… The lights were not put out till far into the night… Groholsky was in bliss… At last, after a prolonged interval of agony, he felt happy and at peace again. Ivan Petrovitch with his two ladies had no such happiness as he had with one. But alas, destiny has no heart. She plays with the Groholskys, the Lizas, the Ivans, and the Mishutkas as with pawns… Groholsky lost his peace again..
One morning, about ten days afterwards, on waking up late, he went out on to the verandah and saw a spectacle which shocked him, revolted him, and moved him to intense indignation. Under the verandah of the villa opposite stood the French women, and between them Liza. She was talking and looking askance at her own villa as though to see whether that tyrant, that despot were awake (so Groholsky interpreted those looks). Ivan Petrovitch standing on the verandah with his sleeves tucked up, lifted Isabella into the air, then Fanny, and then Liza. When he was lifting Liza it seemed to Groholsky that he pressed her to himself… Liza too flung one leg over the parapet… Oh these women! All sphinxes, every one of them!
When Liza returned home from her husband's villa and went into the bedroom on tip-toe, as though nothing had happened, Groholsky, pale, with hectic flushes on his cheeks, was lying in the attitude of a man at his last gasp and moaning.
On seeing Liza, he sprang out of bed, and began pacing about the bedroom.
"So that's what you are like, is it?" he shrieked in a high tenor.
"So that's it! Very much obliged to you! It's revolting, madam!
Immoral, in fact! Let me tell you that!"
Liza turned pale, and of course burst into tears. When women feel that they are in the right, they scold and shed tears; when they are conscious of being in fault, they shed tears only.
"On a level with those depraved creatures! It's.. it's.. it's.. lower than any impropriety! Why, do you know what they are? They are kept women! Cocottes! And you a respectable woman go rushing off where they are.. And he.. He! What does he want? What more does he want of me? I don't understand it! I have given him half of my property – I have given him more! You know it yourself! I have given him what I have not myself… I have given him almost all… And he! I've put up with your calling him Vanya, though he has no right whatever to such intimacy. I have put up with your walks, kisses after dinner… I have put up with everything, but this I will not put up with… Either he or I! Let him go away, or I go away! I'm not equal to living like this any longer, no! You can see that for yourself!.. Either he or I… Enough! The cup is brimming over… I have suffered a great deal as it is… I am going to talk to him at once – this minute! What is he, after all? What has he to be proud of? No, indeed… He has no reason to think so much of himself.."
Groholsky said a great many more valiant and stinging things, but did not "go at once"; he felt timid and abashed… He went to Ivan Petrovitch three days later.
When he went into his apartment, he gaped with astonishment. He was amazed at the wealth and luxury with which Bugrov had surrounded himself. Velvet hangings, fearfully expensive chairs… One was positively ashamed to step on the carpet. Groholsky had seen many rich men in his day, but he had never seen such frenzied luxury… And the higgledy-piggledy muddle he saw when, with an inexplicable tremor, he walked into the drawing-room – plates with bits of bread on them were lying about on the grand piano, a glass was standing on a chair, under the table there was a basket with a filthy rag in it… Nut shells were strewn about in the windows. Bugrov himself was not quite in his usual trim when Groholsky walked in.. With a red face and uncombed locks he was pacing about the room in deshabille, talking to himself, apparently much agitated. Mishutka was sitting on the sofa there in the drawing-room, and was making the air vibrate with a piercing scream.
"It's awful, Grigory Vassilyevitch!" Bugrov began on seeing Groholsky, "such disorder.. such disorder.. Please sit down. You must excuse my being in the costume of Adam and Eve… It's of no consequence… Horrible disorderliness! I don't understand how people can exist here, I don't understand it! The servants won't do what they are told, the climate is horrible, everything is expensive… Stop your noise," Bugrov shouted, suddenly coming to a halt before Mishutka; "stop it, I tell you! Little beast, won't you stop it?"
And Bugrov pulled Mishutka's ear.
"That's revolting, Ivan Petrovitch," said Groholsky in a tearful voice. "How can you treat a tiny child like that? You really are.."
"Let him stop yelling then… Be quiet – I'll whip you!"
"Don't cry, Misha darling… Papa won't touch you again. Don't beat him, Ivan Petrovitch; why, he is hardly more than a baby… There, there… Would you like a little horse? I'll send you a little horse… You really are hard-hearted.."
Groholsky paused, and then asked:
"And how are your ladies getting on, Ivan Petrovitch?"
"Not at all. I've turned them out without ceremony. I might have gone on keeping them, but it's awkward… The boy will grow up.. A father's example… If I were alone, then it would be a different thing… Besides, what's the use of my keeping them? Poof.. it's a regular farce! I talk to them in Russian, and they answer me in French. They don't understand a thing – you can't knock anything into their heads."
"I've come to you about something, Ivan Petrovitch, to talk things over… H'm… It's nothing very particular. But just.. two or three words… In reality, I have a favour to ask of you."
"What's that?"
"Would you think it possible, Ivan Petrovitch, to go away? We are delighted that you are here; it's very agreeable for us, but it's inconvenient, don't you know… You will understand me. It's awkward in a way… Such indefinite relations, such continual awkwardness in regard to one another… We must part… It's essential in fact. Excuse my saying so, but.. you must see for yourself, of course, that in such circumstances to be living side by side leads to.. reflections.. that is.. not to reflections, but there is a certain awkward feeling.."
"Yes… That is so, I have thought of it myself. Very good, I will go away."
"We shall be very grateful to you… Believe me, Ivan Petrovitch, we shall preserve the most flattering memory of you. The sacrifice which you.."
"Very good… Only what am I to do with all this? I say, you buy this furniture of mine! What do you say? It's not expensive, eight thousand.. ten… The furniture, the carriage, the grand piano.."
"Very good… I will give you ten thousand.."
"Well, that is capital! I will set off to-morrow. I shall go to Moscow. It's impossible to live here. Everything is so dear! Awfully dear! The money fairly flies… You can't take a step without spending a thousand! I can't go on like that. I have a child to bring up… Well, thank God that you will buy my furniture… That will be a little more in hand, or I should have been regularly bankrupt.."
Groholsky got up, took leave of Bugrov, and went home rejoicing.
In the evening he sent him ten thousand roubles.
Early next morning Bugrov and Mishutka were already at Feodosia.
III
Several months had passed; spring had come. With spring, fine bright days had come too. Life was not so dull and hateful, and the earth was more fair to look upon… There was a warm breeze from the sea and the open country… The earth was covered with fresh grass, fresh leaves were green upon the trees. Nature had sprung into new life, and had put on new array.
It might be thought that new hopes and new desires would surge up in man when everything in nature is renewed, and young and fresh.. but it is hard for man to renew life..
Groholsky was still living in the same villa. His hopes and desires, small and unexacting, were still concentrated on the same Liza, on her alone, and on nothing else! As before, he could not take his eyes off her, and gloated over the thought: how happy I am! The poor fellow really did feel awfully happy. Liza sat as before on the verandah, and unaccountably stared with bored eyes at the villa opposite and the trees near it through which there was a peep at the dark blue sea… As before, she spent her days for the most part in silence, often in tears and from time to time in putting mustard plasters on Groholsky. She might be congratulated on one new sensation, however. There was a worm gnawing at her vitals… That worm was misery… She was fearfully miserable, pining for her son, for her old, her cheerful manner of life. Her life in the past had not been particularly cheerful, but still it was livelier than her present existence. When she lived with her husband she used from time to time to go to a theatre, to an entertainment, to visit acquaintances. But here with Groholsky it was all quietness and emptiness… Besides, here there was one man, and he with his ailments and his continual mawkish kisses, was like an old grandfather for ever shedding tears of joy.
It was boring! Here she had not Mihey Sergeyitch who used to be fond of dancing the mazurka with her. She had not Spiridon Nikolaitch, the son of the editor of the Provincial News. Spiridon Nikolaitch sang well and recited poetry. Here she had not a table set with lunch for visitors. She had not Gerasimovna, the old nurse who used to be continually grumbling at her for eating too much jam… She had no one! There was simply nothing for her but to lie down and die of depression. Groholsky rejoiced in his solitude, but.. he was wrong to rejoice in it. All too soon he paid for his egoism. At the beginning of May when the very air seemed to be in love and faint with happiness, Groholsky lost everything; the woman he loved and..
That year Bugrov, too, visited the Crimea. He did not take the villa opposite, but pottered about, going from one town to another with Mishutka. He spent his time eating, drinking, sleeping, and playing cards. He had lost all relish for fishing, shooting and the French women, who, between ourselves, had robbed him a bit. He had grown thin, lost his broad and beaming smiles, and had taken to dressing in canvas. Ivan Petrovitch from time to time visited Groholsky's villa. He brought Liza jam, sweets, and fruit, and seemed trying to dispel her ennui. Groholsky was not troubled by these visits, especially as they were brief and infrequent, and were apparently paid on account of Mishutka, who could not under any circumstances have been altogether deprived of the privilege of seeing his mother. Bugrov came, unpacked his presents, and after saying a few words, departed. And those few words he said not to Liza but to Groholsky.. With Liza he was silent and Groholsky's mind was at rest; but there is a Russian proverb which he would have done well to remember: "Don't fear the dog that barks, but fear the dog that's quiet.." A fiendish proverb, but in practical life sometimes indispensable.
As he was walking in the garden one day, Groholsky heard two voices in conversation. One voice was a man's, the other was a woman's. One belonged to Bugrov, the other to Liza. Groholsky listened, and turning white as death, turned softly towards the speakers. He halted behind a lilac bush, and proceeded to watch and listen. His arms and legs turned cold. A cold sweat came out upon his brow. He clutched several branches of the lilac that he might not stagger and fall down. All was over!
Bugrov had his arm round Liza's waist, and was saying to her:
"My darling! what are we to do? It seems it was God's will… I am a scoundrel… I sold you. I was seduced by that Herod's money, plague take him, and what good have I had from the money? Nothing but anxiety and display! No peace, no happiness, no position.. One sits like a fat invalid at the same spot, and never a step forwarder… Have you heard that Andrushka Markuzin has been made a head clerk? Andrushka, that fool! While I stagnate… Good heavens! I have lost you, I have lost my happiness. I am a scoundrel, a blackguard, how do you think I shall feel at the dread day of judgment?"
"Let us go away, Vanya," wailed Liza. "I am dull… I am dying of depression."
"We cannot, the money has been taken.."
"Well, give it back again."
"I should be glad to, but.. wait a minute. I have spent it all. We must submit, my girl. God is chastising us. Me for my covetousness and you for your frivolity. Well, let us be tortured… It will be the better for us in the next world."
And in an access of religious feeling, Bugrov turned up his eyes to heaven.
"But I cannot go on living here; I am miserable."
"Well, there is no help for it. I'm miserable too. Do you suppose I am happy without you? I am pining and wasting away! And my chest has begun to be bad!.. You are my lawful wife, flesh of my flesh.. one flesh… You must live and bear it! While I.. will drive over.. visit you."
And bending down to Liza, Bugrov whispered, loudly enough, however, to be heard several yards away:
"I will come to you at night, Lizanka… Don't worry… I am staying at Feodosia close by… I will live here near you till I have run through everything.. and I soon shall be at my last farthing! A-a-ah, what a life it is! Dreariness, ill.. my chest is bad, and my stomach is bad."
Bugrov ceased speaking, and then it was Liza's turn… My God, the cruelty of that woman! She began weeping, complaining, enumerating all the defects of her lover and her own sufferings. Groholsky as he listened to her, felt that he was a villain, a miscreant, a murderer.
"He makes me miserable.." Liza said in conclusion.
After kissing Liza at parting, and going out at the garden gate, Bugrov came upon Groholsky, who was standing at the gate waiting for him.
"Ivan Petrovitch," said Groholsky in the tone of a dying man, "I have seen and heard it all.. It's not honourable on your part, but I do not blame you… You love her too, but you must understand that she is mine. Mine! I cannot live without her! How is it you don't understand that? Granted that you love her, that you are miserable… Have I not paid you, in part at least, for your sufferings? For God's sake, go away! For God's sake, go away! Go away from here for ever, I implore you, or you will kill me.."
"I have nowhere to go," Bugrov said thickly.
"H'm, you have squandered everything… You are an impulsive man. Very well… Go to my estate in the province of Tchernigov. If you like I will make you a present of the property. It's a small estate, but a good one… On my honour, it's a good one!"
Bugrov gave a broad grin. He suddenly felt himself in the seventh heaven.
"I will give it you… This very day I will write to my steward and send him an authorisation for completing the purchase. You must tell everyone you have bought it… Go away, I entreat you."
"Very good, I will go. I understand."
"Let us go to a notary.. at once," said Groholsky, greatly cheered, and he went to order the carriage.
On the following evening, when Liza was sitting on the garden seat where her rendezvous with Ivan Petrovitch usually took place, Groholsky went quietly to her. He sat down beside her, and took her hand.
"Are you dull, Lizotchka?" he said, after a brief silence. "Are you depressed? Why shouldn't we go away somewhere? Why is it we always stay at home? We want to go about, to enjoy ourselves, to make acquaintances… Don't we?"
"I want nothing," said Liza, and turned her pale, thin face towards the path by which Bugrov used to come to her.
Groholsky pondered. He knew who it was she expected, who it was she wanted.
"Let us go home, Liza," he said, "it is damp here.."
"You go; I'll come directly."
Groholsky pondered again.
"You are expecting him?" he asked, and made a wry face as though his heart had been gripped with red-hot pincers.
"Yes… I want to give him the socks for Misha.."
"He will not come."
"How do you know?"
"He has gone away.."
Liza opened her eyes wide..
"He has gone away, gone to the Tchernigov province. I have given him my estate.."
Liza turned fearfully pale, and caught at Groholsky's shoulder to save herself from falling.
"I saw him off at the steamer at three o'clock."
Liza suddenly clutched at her head, made a movement, and falling on the seat, began shaking all over.
"Vanya," she wailed, "Vanya! I will go to Vanya… Darling!"
She had a fit of hysterics..
And from that evening, right up to July, two shadows could be seen in the park in which the summer visitors took their walks. The shadows wandered about from morning till evening, and made the summer visitors feel dismal… After Liza's shadow invariably walked the shadow of Groholsky… I call them shadows because they had both lost their natural appearance. They had grown thin and pale and shrunken, and looked more like shadows than living people… Both were pining away like fleas in the classic anecdote of the Jew who sold insect powder.
At the beginning of July, Liza ran away from Groholsky, leaving a note in which she wrote that she was going for a time to "her son".. For a time! She ran away by night when Groholsky was asleep.. After reading her letter Groholsky spent a whole week wandering round about the villa as though he were mad, and neither ate nor slept. In August, he had an attack of recurrent fever, and in September he went abroad. There he took to drink… He hoped in drink and dissipation to find comfort… He squandered all his fortune, but did not succeed, poor fellow, in driving out of his brain the image of the beloved woman with the kittenish face.. Men do not die of happiness, nor do they die of misery. Groholsky's hair went grey, but he did not die: he is alive to this day… He came back from abroad to have "just a peep" at Liza.. Bugrov met him with open arms, and made him stay for an indefinite period. He is staying with Bugrov to this day.
This year I happened to be passing through Groholyovka, Bugrov's estate. I found the master and the mistress of the house having supper… Ivan Petrovitch was highly delighted to see me, and fell to pressing good things upon me… He had grown rather stout, and his face was a trifle puffy, though it was still rosy and looked sleek and well-nourished… He was not bald. Liza, too, had grown fatter. Plumpness did not suit her. Her face was beginning to lose the kittenish look, and was, alas! more suggestive of the seal. Her cheeks were spreading upwards, outwards, and to both sides. The Bugrovs were living in first-rate style. They had plenty of everything. The house was overflowing with servants and edibles..
When we had finished supper we got into conversation. Forgetting that Liza did not play, I asked her to play us something on the piano.
"She does not play," said Bugrov; "she is no musician… Hey, you there! Ivan! call Grigory Vassilyevitch here! What's he doing there?" And turning to me, Bugrov added, "Our musician will come directly; he plays the guitar. We keep the piano for Mishutka – we are having him taught.."
Five minutes later, Groholsky walked into the room – sleepy, unkempt, and unshaven… He walked in, bowed to me, and sat down on one side.
"Why, whoever goes to bed so early?" said Bugrov, addressing him.
"What a fellow you are really! He's always asleep, always asleep
.. The sleepy head! Come, play us something lively.."
Groholsky turned the guitar, touched the strings, and began singing:
"Yesterday I waited for my dear one.."
I listened to the singing, looked at Bugrov's well-fed countenance, and thought: "Nasty brute!" I felt like crying… When he had finished singing, Groholsky bowed to us, and went out.
"And what am I to do with him?" Bugrov said when he had gone away. "I do have trouble with him! In the day he is always brooding and brooding… And at night he moans… He sleeps, but he sighs and moans in his sleep… It is a sort of illness… What am I to do with him, I can't think! He won't let us sleep… I am afraid that he will go out of his mind. People think he is badly treated here… In what way is he badly treated? He eats with us, and he drinks with us… Only we won't give him money. If we were to give him any he would spend it on drink or waste it.. That's another trouble for me! Lord forgive me, a sinner!"
They made me stay the night. When I woke next morning, Bugrov was giving some one a lecture in the adjoining room..
"Set a fool to say his prayers, and he will crack his skull on the floor! Why, who paints oars green! Do think, blockhead! Use your sense! Why don't you speak?"
"I.. I.. made a mistake," said a husky tenor apologetically.
The tenor belonged to Groholsky.
Groholsky saw me to the station.
"He is a despot, a tyrant," he kept whispering to me all the way. "He is a generous man, but a tyrant! Neither heart nor brain are developed in him… He tortures me! If it were not for that noble woman, I should have gone away long ago. I am sorry to leave her. It's somehow easier to endure together."
Groholsky heaved a sigh, and went on:
"She is with child… You notice it? It is really my child… Mine… She soon saw her mistake, and gave herself to me again. She cannot endure him.."
"You are a rag," I could not refrain from saying to Groholsky.
"Yes, I am a man of weak character… That is quite true. I was born so. Do you know how I came into the world? My late papa cruelly oppressed a certain little clerk – it was awful how he treated him! He poisoned his life. Well.. and my late mama was tender-hearted. She came from the people, she was of the working class… She took that little clerk to her heart from pity… Well.. and so I came into the world… The son of the ill-treated clerk. How could I have a strong will? Where was I to get it from? But that's the second bell… Good-bye. Come and see us again, but don't tell Ivan Petrovitch what I have said about him."
I pressed Groholsky's hand, and got into the train. He bowed towards the carriage, and went to the water-barrel – I suppose he was thirsty!
